Once I was in heaven, it felt real nice to look down and see people,nature everything. That was when I had wings, two white wings. I used to fly then. My wings got broken long ago. Movies does not repeat themselves in real life. I am still flying on my broken wings, but it wont take long to fall down and to die. Self esteem is a quality that I lack, but now I think whatever of that thing was left inside me has got accumulated and declared rebellion against me. They have deleted every traces of her that was left in my life. Now I say to people that I'm happy, but deep inside I know I am not. None is. But probably my case is a little worse. However I've taken some resolutions:
1) I'll never feel for anyone again, no matter what happens.
2) I'll be selfish from now on, enough of gaining pleasure by seeing people happy.
3) I'll not try to guess people henceforth,
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I know, that the person concerned will never watch this, but still, I am thankful to you, for making me realise that I was childish, I was pathetic; whatever dude!! Au revoir!!

chapa pore gecche dhulote
sei lekhata
jharbo na dhulo ar
dhaka acche
thak dhaka

somoi giyeche egiye
songe amio
tao amar kache
ajo kothaye jno lukano acche
sei lekhata
porbo na ami ar
dhaka acche
thak dhaka

smritir arale
bismritir majhe
hoito ek ghonta
kokhono ba arek ghonta
tobuo acche amar kache
sei lekhata
dekhbo na ami ar
dhaka acche
thak dhaka

etogulo din periye
etogulo bochor periye
chule dhoreche pak
hargulo-o ar temon joralo noye
onek egiye giyechi ami
onek onek uchute
tobuo majhe majhe
ekla rate, chokh jala kore
dactar bole
chingrimachta khaben na
histamine rash hoye
ami to jani
ekhono amar kache lukano acche
sei lekhata
ajo agle rekhechi buker modhye
holud hoye jaoa kichu kagoz
jole jaoa du-ekta photo
ar kichu smriti
harate chai,kintu harate pari na
sei lekhata
thak na
dhaka acche
thak dhaka

Sei sokkaltheke fachatfachat kore brishti porei jacche.Amader abhaoa office-er guldar lokjon bolechen- sara bochorer komti na pushiye charbe na ei brishti. Ninmochap betar ekhon 24 inchi muscle,ochirei seta 30 inchi-te pouchanor 1ta chance ache bole sona jacche, aboshya amader guldar officer khaskhobor. Tai ki hobe ki hobe na bola shokto. Chardike swine flu-er dapot-er modhye lokjon dhopadhop jore porche, ar sei virus onyer modhye transmit korbar joghonyo chokranto cholche. Abosthya emon dariyeche je naki kathi diye hachleo loke sondeho sondeho chokhe takaye. Bojho thela. Eke erokom weather, tar opor chutir din. Dinta besh valoi katar kotha chilo ar katlo-o besh.Mane shamuk-er dinkal besh valoi kate.Tar opor abar cholche classtest-er humki, fatoa jari hoyecche hoye classtest noye pkc-er violin. Sabu kheye sobbar pet bhore gecche, tai daota ar marte parlo na keo. Ar ami bosebose elangfelang likhe jachi.Dhussala!!!

Vanga janlata onekdin dhorei jalacche. Beta! na haoate nore, na pore, kicchui na. Jemon jhule acche temon-i. Ajkal ar orkut-e bokbok korte temon valo lage na. Onek-i to holo. Onekdin, onekkicchu. Anirbandar caseta amar khetre ar repeat korbe na dhorei neoa jaye. Ajkal Baghajatin station elei kno jno hat-ta mathaye uthe ase,bokar moto jhulte jhulte train-e jete jete. Ki ar korben uni? Ja korar to onek kichui korlen. Kintu nit fol? lobodongka. Tao kno jani na, Jadavpurer shonimondirtar samne atke jai. Ek hate ekta 5oo ml-er coke pet ar arek hate 1ta jolonto special. Chaina, tao mukh theke beriye jaye," Vogoban, meyeta jno valo thake." Kamon ekta odvut hoye gelo na puro beparta? Majhe majhe vabi, amra koto kicchu chaina, tao amader ta korte hoye. Amra semestar dite chai na, tao amader dite hoye; amra porte chaina,tao amader porte hoye; kokhono kokhono sudhu 1tu ekla thakte iccha kore, kintu keu ta thakte dile to! Sei thik kori rojdin je," na, ebar-i sesh, ar vabbo na.Ebar onyodik dekhboi." Kintu sei abar porerdin je k sei. Tao ekhon ekta valo bepar hoyecche, sokkal sokkal ar sei vitkelemi rogta amake paye na. Kintu tao, tao ekhono ami vabi, vebei jai ar mon kharap kori, pechar moto mukh kore bose thaki. Hoito somoyer sathe sathe etao sukiye jabe. Theke jabe sudhu duto bokar goppo. Tarpor keo hoito konodin sei goppota pore dekhbe. Ar hasbe, mon khule,pran khule. Tao ami khusi hobo. At least, kauke to khusi korte perechi,nijer simanatar baire giye.

aj theke thik korlum... nijer matrivasatei blog korbo :D... inziri vasata valo bote, lokjoner communicate korteo subidha hoye, but beparta holo ei je, amar blogtato ar USA-er kono lokjon porche na, nehat khub besi hole amar-i bondhura, ba aro besi hole amar-i "so called bondhura". Ta tara highly bangla khub bhalo bujhte parbe, ar tachara inziri vasata jotoi valo hok, je vasate kotha boli, j vasata vabi sei vasa chara, onyo kono vasate likhle kamon ekta guilt feeling hoye, ba better say, thik tripti hoye na. Tai switching to my mother tongue barring the obvious cases like "the evolution of game engine series"- jodi ota ar at all continue korar enthuta pai. Jara pore bujhte parchen, tader-k dhonyobad. Ar jara parchen na, tader jonye amar kichu korar nei. Tara sojotne tader somoyer sodbyabohar onyo kono blog pore korun,etai ami chai. :)

sd-
Sriman Arnab Basu
;)

Bojho thela :D

ami kintu sedin-o voy paini
sedin-o harini
jedin koyekta kalo poshak pora lok
ratrer ondhokare
egiye esechilo amar dike
hate dhora chora
bolechilo " ja acche,sob diye de"
ami diyechilam
ar mone mone hesechilam
"sob ki nite parbe tomra amar theke?"

ami kintu sedin-o voy paini
sedin-o harini
jedin sada poshak pora bariwala
songe char-pachta mastan
egiye esechilo amar dike
bolechilo," chere jan sob kicchu.noile...."
ami chere esechilam
ar mone mone hesechilam
"sob jaiga theke ki tomra amake tarate parbe?"

ami kintu sedin-o voy paini
sedin-o harini
jedin lal poshak pora chintu
songe tar dosh khana gambat bondhu
egiye esechilo amar dike
football mathe, pa chaliyechilo
pa venge du tukro
bolechilo," sala, goal khabi ebar"
ami goal kheyechilam
ar mone mone hesechilam
" sob jaigate ki tomra amake goal dite parbe?"

ami kintu sedin voy peyechilam
sedin herechilam
jedin meghla dupure
brishtir modhye
amar chatata keu niye chole giyechilo
bolechilo," porerdin thik diye debo"
ekhono paini
ami diye diyechilam
ar mone mone hesechilam
kintu sedin
kichu bolte parini nijeke

aj-o chatata ferot paini