I don't know why I still stare blankly at the gtalk window and expect for something to happen. I don't know why I still hurry to see the senders name when any message is delivered to my cell, I don't know why I still rush to 8B expecting for someone to come. I really don't know. I have recovered.Right??!! then why? I don't know why I still feel jealous of the people who seem to be happy. I don't know why I still try to appear ignorant and triumphant in front of certain people. I really don't know. I've learned filtering. Right??!! Now I have learnt to distinguish between "non-serious" and "serious" words. then why? I don't know why I still expect, I don't know why I still trust, I don't know why I still cry. I have been able to make myself realize the reality. Right??!! then why?

Someday I wont trust anymore,someday I wont expect anymore,someday I wont try to shadow myself, someday I wont feel jealous anymore, someday I wont rush anymore,someday I wont log in to gtalk anymore.

That day, I will become silent just like my cellphone. As silent as the ocean.

The "best" of the jokes I've heard till date

# "Yesterday I got myself in an S-9, and a woman and the bus-conductor started yelling at each other there(*gimme a break plz*)"

# A hen was sitting on a tree, and she was laying eggs, but none of the eggs fell on the ground. how come?

cz the hen was wearing half pants [*typical gondho jokes*]


# show your index finger and say this is "Pankaj" then fold it and ask what is it?

-Pankaj Udas (*phewwww anirban :(*)

# show your index finger and say this is "abdullah" then shake it and ask what is it?

-Sheik Abdullah (*anirban! kill yourself :x*)

# "Shetai shetai" and "ufff!! ar parchi nah" (*okay! these really makes us laugh, people unaware wont be able to realize why*)

# bla bla bla ihduihguiwhhuwhuegggbhguyhgsyftyfwjwqjkjjhugqyuewgjhbvhgjhgwqegjjehnjhwqjhehbjhsgbhgwheg
jdnjhwjhbjdbwdbjbdjdbjbwbdwbbe (*guess who's talkin!!!)

Some threads, some rays of light, something that keeps people optimistic and then suddenly everything collapses, yours dreams get demolished in front of your eyes, and still life goes on. You say you are happy, you say you are happy to yourself but deep inside you,you know that you are not. You know things could have been much better for you. You know endings could have been better. But then you realize that everything in your life need not be the best. You realize even a bit worse things can turn out to be better with time. You realize hope is behind all evil. So then you kill the hope inside you. You are really happier now. But are you really? Right from your childhood, you have been taught that it is hope that keeps people alive. So are you dead? You better be. Because actually its not hope, it is sensitiveness that's behind everything. It makes people care for others, feel for others, cry for others, laugh for others, think for others, pray for others and ideally one should think about himself only. So now you kill it. You become insensitive. So now you don't have any dreams, don't have any hope, with hope faith is gone and so is gone affection, you don't have any of these qualities now. You don't feel for others, don't think of others. UNDEAD. Now you realize you have killed yourself in pursuit of happiness. And you are really happy now. Your own black and white world seems merrier. Your own mime characters are jollier. Congratulations!!! you have just accomplished the mission, you have just killed your soul in order to adapt yourself with this world. Amen!!!!

and again, no "what have I done"s.

I need Feviquick

Dismantled...disconnected...frustrated... but still in hope, hope is everything. It's a well heard story. I've heard it in childhood, a long time back. So, please excuse me if I get a bit jumbled up with the characters. But the storyline will be more or less the same, that much I can assure.

Once, there was no sorrow in this world. People used to remain happy no matter whatever happened. There was glee every where, every corner, every nook. God gave a small box to a man, and told him not to open it, whatever happens. The man took the box home, and placed it at a corner. Every now and then he would check it. But as days passed by, the man became a bit reluctant. He had a small girl. Her name was Pandora.One day, Pandora was playing while she heard some noise from inside the box. As she paid attention, she heard some voices from inside are begging to her to let them out. Pandora opened the lid of the box and some insects flew out from inside it. Some of them bit Pandora,and she screamed in pain. That was the first time on earth that people felt pain. The insects flew outside and bit everyone.People were screaming in pain. Being scared, Pandora quickly shut the lid. But then she heard a very sweet voice from inside requesting her to let it come out. Hesitatingly Pandora opened the lid again and a cute little pixie came out. She told," I am hope, I will help people to endure, to withstand their pains, their sorrows." She touched Pandora with her magic wand and all her pain was gone.

From then on, hope is helping people to overcome their pains. I wish it will help me too.
No " what have I done?" in this post.

The evolution of game engines

Well!! Be honest! and tell me that how many times have you bought or downloaded a game, and realised that its not supported by your hardware, or how many times you have felt jealous of your friend, who manages to play a game smoothly which just keeps on hiccuping in your system. You curse your graphics card, you say to himself that may be time has come for an upgrade. Your graphics card is not the sole one to be blamed, there is a small thing called graphics engine/game engine which powers almost everything in the game, just like an automobile engine that runs the vehicle.
Gone are the days when, people used to play games for free. Well, obviously,some games even these days come for free, but they are really minority, also you just don't get the same satisfaction level. Ever wondered about thosr jargons like pixel shaders, vertex shaders, anti aliasing?
The graphics engine may justly be referred as the heart of any game. In most of cases this is the area, which takes most of the time of the designer team.After it is built, usually programmers build the maps or levels that actually people play. But game engines may safely be regarded as the main task of game development. This is why "Valve" took almost 4 years to release "Half life 2".Its SOURCE engine may very well be marked as an revolution in gaming industry. After the engine is built, some companies just do so some minor modifications to use the same modified engine in their newer games, "Battlefield 2142" came very shortly after "Battlefield 2" . They both use the same engine with only minor modification, some companies just sell the engine to some other parties, SAGE is one such engine which has experienced many owners.
Prior to game engines, games were written as singular entities, right from the ground level to achieve the optimal usage of graphics hardware-- this was termed as Kernel by the developers.
The first generation of 3rd party game engines was mainly dominated by 3 players. Viz. BRender from Argonaut Software, Renderware from Criterion Software Limited and RenderMorphics' Reality Lab .However reality lab was taken over by Microsoft and was turned into Direct3D. Renderware was eventually taken over by Electronic Arts [EA]

In the next post, we will discuss more about the evolution of Game Engines and we will try to dig the past of some epical engines like the unreal engine , the SOURCE engine or the Quake engine

contd....

Ha ha ha ha ha ha ha!!! I am laughing my ass off. And seriously, it doesn't seem to stop or at least,its not giving any indication. This all started when I saw a profile in orkut. The self proclaimed beauty with brains.She says, she is innocent, and she also warns people, not to go by her looks. Luckily, I was able to get a glimpse of ms. orkut as she kept some photos of herself unlocked. Frankly speaking, I think she suffers from anorexia if not worse, like chronic bone decay or even marrow cancer or haemophilic anaemia. I can't remember of the last time, I saw a skinnier girl. Ksh, I am taking my words back, you are extremely fat in comparison with ms orkut. The whole profile page is full of me,me,me and me. And they say crunchy to be megalomaniac. He he. Her turn offs include models who according to her are dumb, attention/attitude seeking persons [lol!! atti means attitude I reckon, but what the heck does "attitude seeking" means?? and limited English (speaking/understanding/overall??? idk) is among her turn offs too],who on earth told you dear, that models are bimbos?? they are much more clever you are, at least. Her prime ambition in life is to earn loads. Ok!! that's perfectly normal. But then how come models be dumb??? I think they earn loads. :O. Her height is 162 cemis. She claims her to be one of the most brainy persons of West Bengal [if not world!!!], and she reads in BIT [techno India], poor girl :(. I am still laughing my ass off. That's why I thought of posting this. And Gondho:: "what have I done??" :D :D :D rtflmao